Sunday, February 4

-Does i noe what i dounno tmrw is not are the were but u see we are helping the pesta perdana and roda2 impian..-

Heya.

Reali tired arh. Just came back from lepaking with guss and haikal.
And!. our gig is coming near and nearer. like somehow, it stand beside me and i finally can say.."eh hi my gig is on 24 feb". hahaa. errrrrr...


No more. No more. No more.. 8th floor at the BBT. haha. Since part of the COS was caught red handed smoking . Luckily i'm a boy.. if not i'm superman..(not related to any thing)

Btw, malays are muslims? Who agree with me?
No, malay is a race. Islam is religion. Malays do not = to Islam. Its a different. To be honest, i'm malay..and i'm trying to change that. I was watching tv, then i fell asleep(nothing related to anthng..)

Cheers..


| please lah dok! answer the telephone! @ 12:08 AM|

__________

Tuesday, January 30

-Salutes to the nation. I'm tying to make a convo..Ciblot.!-

Today. Tonight i'll be going for my ferst tuition lesson. Well, its been so long since i had tuition at the tutor home or tuition in a grp. I hope I cud get along well with the mates there. Not to mention the tutor, i'll be going there with Haikal tday..cause we'll be learning at the same place. I hope, really2 hope that the tutor will teach clearly, as I don't want to waste my parents money nomore like past few phucking yrs. huhuu..

Got some ciggys in my pocket to survive till' Friday, I hope so. Cause, I can't really limit the sticks I smoke. But for sure, if O lvl had finish and i'm working.. damn! I'll buy two pack of S'pore ciggys one day sia!. Hahaa. :P.. Plus+Plus.. i'm already 18 by the time..!! hahahaha. Ehem2. Dah bsar anak mak.. Hehe. Aku dh lepas 7 eleven!. Cheers! Kdai Kopi!. hahaha. diam2. Heaven sia... Green Tea.. Earth and Heaven..

Let's talk bout smthng which not really impt in our lyfe. Let's talk bout ciggys in this post. Erm, now, I don't smoke menthol animore, cause I really don't like the taste of menthol nomore, not like last time, where, evry ciggys are the same. Now Marlboro Red is my favourite. Hahaha. Evrythng that is red, i'll smoke. But if its menthol, i'll think twice. Haha. Anyway I do realize the vanity of smoking... but can't really stop cause i've been addicted and its part of my daily routine. Still, I still trying to cut dwn evryday.. atleasst i'm trying. Huhuuhu..


Okie. I missed fishing. Really. Missed the fun waiting so long for the fish to eat the bait but end up, the bait was actually gone. Missed the surroundings at night while fishing. Playing hide and seek to smoke behind the bushes, hiding from my parents and relatives. Haha. Miss it man. Darn!.. miss it so much..

Miss the sappy so much. The butterfly in a jar. I missed sappy. The convo with sappy aren't that boom baby boom kinda thing animore like last tym. Now its kinda Doom Baby Doom... hahaa. =( I miss the lure of sappy smile, they just pull me out of my chair and into the air.. and i'm suddenly flying like SuperBeng.. but gravity pull me down, cause i'm heavy as you can see. Hahaha. Can't describe the feeling. Suffered so much. Had tahan it so long. Haiz. But all went down to the longkang. Ish ish ish. Shudn't have use all the hopes for Sappy. Now, i'm down the longkang trying to climb back up, atleast i'm trying, but still pieces of hopes are attached strongly to my skin that I can't let it go. For some hopes are already gone. Some dreams are shattered. Some fate do not really end up beautifully. Just think and think larh Ahmad Tabs!


| please lah dok! answer the telephone! @ 5:16 PM|

__________

Monday, January 29

-The Futility Of My Life...........................................-

Whatever it is. I'm just letting something out of my mind, sharing a piece of it with this blog of mine.


As I sit and think.

I remember the days of happiness whereby everything are complete in my life. Atleast for this heart of mine. And surely, I really missed that. Really. Now, I don't really understand what i'm searching right now in my life. Seems like everyday that passed were the same day like everyday. And of course that same day doesn't come with happiness or making any positive things in my life. I'm like between happiness-me-emptiness, but i'm sure i'm nearer to emptiness. Everyday, i'm searching for life in my life, I search for happiness in my laughther, I search for my priority in being a muslim and I search love from the others as well. I'm lost thinking about everything as I just don't have the energy to carry on. It's like I have come to a point where I want to give up, but at the same time i'm thinking twice. Just can't get an answer. I'm breaking down. I'm lost at the moment. I need time to regain the happiness that i'm losing right now in my life. Life looks so dull since that particular time, I can't remember. The colors are fading and I can't defined the meaning of laughter in an emptiness.


Please... don't read my blog anymore...
It's just a waste of your time...
Cause i'm wasting mine too...


| please lah dok! answer the telephone! @ 7:09 PM|

__________

Sunday, January 28

-Making a LONG-TERM!!!.. Its not tat easy.. well, wtf. I wanna break it and get it out to catch em' all...----> Poke'mon-

Woi!.

Aper woi2!!

Tkda nama aper?

*cibloted larh.. nama aku woi kang siow bodoh!!*

Oh..

Swrie..hehe...


| please lah dok! answer the telephone! @ 9:00 PM|

__________

Saturday, January 27

-Boom Baby!!-

Heya.. Yest was a boom!! baby!! boom..!! hahaa..

Went to Seoul Garden yesterday aftr the friday prayers. A treat frm Cikgu Ayesha. I cudn't stop eating andtaking all the foods there. It was a blast. We ate for free, even tho' the plan was that, we pay $5 to her. But then she said, nvm.. its on the house. Hahaaa. At night I went to my religious class as usual, only that, my cousin came also. So I got a frend to smoke with. Hahaa.


A frantic 2 yr old kid finding his way back from home at Tampines while he is at Vivo City.. you know what I mean?? I guess i'm just lost at this moment. Evryday seems to be the same. At times I was so sturdy to start it, at times.. I just wanna turn off the phone. Can't I make this mind up..? "Cause in my mind is, what are we changing all about"..?? Its almost equal to archaic.. I can't wait till the city get covered with tears. Can't seems to convince anything.. For what I did was obviously oblivion.. Haiz. When can I be them..?

Till here.
Off....


| please lah dok! answer the telephone! @ 7:23 PM|

__________

Tuesday, January 23

-Woaahh..-

Today.. was a very wasted day for me, I mean in school. Why? It's because. I did not study anythng today. Not because, I was day-dreaming or anythng, its tat, I was sick. A breeze of hell as what Prophet Muhammad once said. I can't even talk. I had a very bad cold at school. I wanted to sleep, but I can't. Haish.. Till now, i'm still having a cold. If tmrw is still the same, I won't go to school, as its just a waste of tym. I hope i'll get well soon.. I hope so..

well..

I've been listening to one of the greatest song I think. I deem so that its one of the greatest song ever written. Altho' some might say its kinda ok. Well, what I really like about the song is the sad2 story behind it. This song is a heartfelt ballad, about the pain a singer called Eric Clapton faced. After his son-4 yrs old-died. He felt from a 53rd story of a condominium. Eric was distraught for months after the tragic incident. It came out when Eric Clapton was making soundtrack for the movie Rush with his friends. It won a Grammy for song of the Year in 1993. It was also included on Clapton's Grammy award-winning album, Unplugged. It is Rolling Stone's Top 500 Songs. His grief won him a big award. I must salute him for being strong and carry on living after the incident and replace his sadness to an achievement far beyond our dreams. I could cry listening to this song. Altho' its a very old song. It just captured this heart of mine, when I ferst listen to it 3 days ago I think..

The song called- Tears In Heaven...

would you know my name
If i saw you in heaven?
Would you feel the same
If i saw you in heaven?

I must be strong and carry on
'cause i know i don't belong here in heaven...

Would you hold my hand
If i saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand
If i saw you in heaven?

I'll find my way through night and day
'cause i know i just can't stay here in heaven...

Time can bring you down, time can bend your knees
Time can break your heart, have you begging please...begging please

Beyond the door there's peace i'm sure
And i know there'll be no more tears in heaven...

Would you know my name
If i saw you in heaven?
Would you feel the same
If i saw you in heaven?

I must be strong and carry on
'cause i know i don't belong here in heaven...

Cheers... :'(
May his son is blessed.
Semoga Allah Mencucuri Rohnya Kepada Ustazah...
Insyallah...


| please lah dok! answer the telephone! @ 9:13 PM|

__________

Monday, January 22

-Not being Archaic... Change2...-

Hey...

Wat's Up... ??

the ceiling...

Huhuuu..


Okies.. Guess what..? I got good news. Atleast for my band. We are confirm to be perfrming at Gas Haus on the 24 Feb. I hope friends could make it. Hahaa. The word "hope" is because most of my friends are into heavy guitars kinda songs. Especially not into Oasis. But for sure, this time, we gonna play more of our original songs. Of course, gotta practice to maintain and to hone our skills of playing the instrument. Gonna make it perfect as possible. But altho's there's confident, to be modest in evrythng we do is the right thing. We have too. If not, it gonna lead us to over-confident.

Okie... Yesterday was the ferst tym in my whole SCHOOL LYFE that I study by MYSELF for 2hrs.. Hahaa. Seriously. Except for tuition that is. Haha. For once, i'm proud of myself, for studying that long by myself.. you'd know what I mean?? But today, was so difficult for me to wake up from my beutiful sleep and go to school.. Haiya.. tiring. The point for me of going to school was merely to study for my O lvl and go to Poly. If not for that. I would have sleep all the way. As noone was at home in the morning. I was at some point-monolog- and all the answer was an indecisive one. Haha. But of course.. waking up was my final answer.. and I've WON A MILLION DOLLARS!!!.. errrrr....

Must I ? You won't be a vindictive okie if I do it..
It's not because i'm egocentric. It's just that.. Haish..
Place a mouse in my shoe, and it will faint.. not because of the problems i'm goin thru..
it's because of the smell.. whuhuu.. funny issit?? huh! funny!?


| please lah dok! answer the telephone! @ 5:08 PM|

__________